Mordred of Kaldor

Day started off pretty well. Found everyone in the Marauderin Kaldorian. Seems it was decided to take a break today. What better than some fun with all the rest of the Kaldorians. Truth be said we have not had such fun in a long time. Something that should happen more often. We have been mingling with others far too long now and have forgotten how fun an all Kaldorian night is.

This was too good to be true ofcourse. The moment I stepped in Cal wanted to talk with me alone. I went along. Cal apologised for the other night. Very funny. Not the apology but the fact that I felt guilt. She was nay wrong in all honesty. Things would be fine if I hadn't left, doesn't matter if I had a choice or not. So it was an apology I nay wanted. Nonetheless she apologised. Fine up to now. All hell broke loose afterwards.

Started talking about Shelly and Vegetta. I told her I feel sorry for him but he aint the first man this thing happened to and he aint going to be the last. I know only too well how he feels right now. He will get over it though as did the rest of us. It is hard but things dont always turn out the way we planned them. I do not want to remember the details after that. I was called everything ranging from dead to twofaced all the way to cradlesnatcher. And there was a big fuss afterward. I didn't want to stay and listen to the rest. She was the first to leave the room though. I followed out of it and removed my sash. I will not cooperate with someone that refuses to listen and storms out before I have finished talking. I still consider myself a soldier of Kaldor, I will always be one. It is what I am. I will fight alongside my men. But apart from that I consider myself to be on leave and off duty until I leave for Gorimdor. If and when the need arises I will act as my duties expect me to act.

I went and sat at the temple of Dondinia. Temple of Raza was my first choice but with all the energy there I doubt I would have cooled off at all. I found the other temple more calming. I picked myself up after a little bit and headed back to the tavern. On my way the ever caring Gorn was all over me asking me if I was alright. I see my barging out of the tavern did nay go unnoticed. Mistake. I will have to remember not to show these things in front of the rest. But anyway Cal had made such a big fuss about things I doubt this time I could have avoided it.

My good luck did not leave me though. We were attacked shortly after by a bunch of Brigands I can only guess. We stood our ground well and fended their attack. What stupid people attack Kaldorians when they are all together in their own tavern drinking. We did have quite a few injured though.

*chuckle* Again I tried to talk to Cal. She met me in the temple of Raza. All I wanted to tell her was that what happened to Veg aint not at all different to what she did to me. She told me I am not the man she loved. Well...She was right about that. I was not the same man. My priorities have changed quite a bit. So has the way I protect myself. But I am in no case the heartless bastard she thinks I am. Before I could finish talking to her Shelly comes inside wounded telling us of a second attack only a few minutes after the first one. Cal and mehself armed up but what we saw was a lot of our men injured again and just the two of us left to fight. We did what any selfrespectin Kaldorian would do and charged. We were overwhelmed by their numbers. Soon after a few vipers joined in but they could not fend them off either. Guess it was a tie for today. It would not have been if we weren't scattered after the first battle.

Apart from minor injuries everyone was fine. I couldnt see Cal anywhere. I ran to the Temple of Raza and found her there on the floor. She was alright and sat up heavily. She looked at me with such dislike I could not handle at that moment. Hence the only words that came out of my mouth were these. "Stay out of my personal life. You want to criticise what I do fine. Do it alone or with someone else quietly. This whole fuss that happened over my personal life is utter nonsense." She got up and started walking with a limp. Curse my weakness. I will always have a soft spot for her no matter what she sais about me or what she thinks. I tried to stop her and talk to her but I was faced a couple more bitter comments.

Foolishness. I still do not understand why what I do with my personal life must be open to comments and common knowledge to everyone. Everyone best stay out of it from now on.
I have sent a letter to Natalie asking her to meet me today. The sooner I talk with her the better. I've hurt her enough already. She does not deserve this.

The sash remains off me until I feel me and the Commander can talk again without having to fight in public. The sooner poeple stop concerning themselves with things that is of no concern of theis and none of their business the sooner we can get on with the important stuff.

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