Mordred of Kaldor

Was a much better day today. Well...at least towards the end of it.

Started off going to Trinsic hoping to find Natalie. Nay saw anyone at the gates. Headed fer the Keg. Found two Duchy guards none of them was her. And I also stumbled upon Cal and Megan. Ofcourse the moment I stepped in Cal walked out. So I sat inside with Gorn and Shelly trying to have a peaceful drink.

Megan returned and looked at me with meaning. I know she wanted to hear my side of the story. She always has been a good friend and as it seems she always will be. I was prejudiced to start with so I gave her the same attiture I gave everyone daring to question me on this subject. She took my first explosion and when I calmed down we decided to go somewhere quiet and I would tell her the story from the beginning.

It was almost time for the expedition to save Devante. I had promised Gwen I'd be there but...this was more important for me. A man less made no difference and they did find him anyway.

Megan sat and just listened to all this long story and how everything had happened. It seems as if when I finished she understood me at least. And at least she didnt say what she had said earlier on. That I have changed and become a different man. She saw I was still the same. Having one person understand was very helpful. If only Cal could get out of her strop and then this whole thing can cool down. What Megan said was true. She had always hoped,as had I, that things would be back they way they used to be. The way they were supposed to be. I'm never the one to hide behind my finger. But sadly this whole idea had ended a few months back and Megan just realised as well there is no fixing this ever again.

Shelly came and found us. They were back from the expedition and they had found Devante. Thought I ought to pay him and and mostly Gwen a visit since I nay kept my promise. There was a crowd outside the elven infirmary so I just headed straight in. Devante was in bed. Gwen was at his side as was Ruadnit. A few more were there as well includin Cal. Her reaction as of late was instant. She told me I should leave. But to my surprise Gwen came to me and asked me to try and talk to Devante. Maybe if he could listen and I got him angry they could get a reaction out of him.And we sure did...

I tried with a reminding him of a few ugly details frem our past but apart from an eye openin slightly didnt get much more than that. Then I looked at Gwen and it came to me. I whispered in his ear "Devante, Gwen is too good fer yer and when yer die, she beh all mine". It was comical. Suddenly he calls my name and then lands a punch straight on my nose. Mission accomplished. They did find something in his mouth and they removed it to examine what it was. Ruadnit came to look after my nose cause it was swollen, thankfully not broken. I'd have to let my hair grow again if he had broke it.

I had forgot she was there. "Dont touch it! Dont help him! He deserves everything he gets!" Cals voice echoed in the room. I snapped. And had enough of that attitude. What I replied was not to my liking. I didnt want to hurt her anymore. If she was hurt she didnt show it. She just remained silent. She did leave a bit later though with elise and headed towards the Rose for a drink. Never saw her again that night. Arinar had passed by. Been some time since I last saw him again. This man always makes you laugh. And he did cheer me up. He was also moaning for a dentist. Was funny. *chuckles*

I just hope things will calm down and I hope I'll find Natalie too so I can talk to her and explain what has happened. I have thought of many reactions she can have. But her reaction is not what concerns me. My concern is one. She opened up a bit. She looks as if she can start trusting people again. I dont want her to lose that. Things that happened are one thing. But she left. Different people. And I really dont want to be the one more black chapter. Can't do anything more than wait and see and hope.

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