Rebecca

Thursday - 12th. April

Mmm, Who would have known, that a tip could almost start a fight between myself and Rand from the Vesperian Militia?

I came to the Swaggers and found Kiran standing at the bar and Rand sitting on the chair with his nose burried in the snow. Getting one lane after another.
This ofcause - Resulted in Rand getting really, really high.
He spend hours looking at his hands and why should I not take advantage of it?

When Rand was as high, as a man possible could get on the snow, I walked up to him with the sweetest smile, I could give and asked him for a tip..
Rand just nodded and staggered out from the Swaggers and a few moments later he returned with the best tip, I ever resived!
- A check on 100.000 doubloons! Hua!
I placed the check in a safe place and there I plan to keep it, untill something comes up and I need a large amount of money..

Ofcause Rand found out about the tip - It turns out that it was his Family fortune. He tried to make Partisan Macil beat me, when I claimed, that I had spend every diem of his family fortune on dresses, sandals, gems - All sorts of shite, that could cost a fortune and what I don't need.

He tried to threathen me, with burning down the Swaggers.
That actually made me worried and when I was about to come clean and go pick up the check - Esca and Draxen arrived.
Thank Gawd, I can cry on command!
I managed to get Esca and Draxen on my side, so the Swaggers is safe..

Draxen made it clear to Rand, that touching me - Would mean that the Captain would kill him 13 times, before he hit the ground.

I smile a little, when I think about what Draxen said, but it also stings alot inside of me.
I broke up with Hanse yesterday.

I am not sure, its a good reason, but I really feel, like I am the 'third wheel'.
Hanse loves the Militia - There is no doubt about it.
It just hurts, that I only get an hour with him, once a week - sometimes every 14. days.

I know, he is trying to make time for both the Militia and me.
And I do know, that the wars and such takes alot of work.
It just hurts, beeing the second choice.

Who knows, what will happen in the future?
Mebbe there will be peace, and we can have a change...
I don't know and I don't wanna think about it either, because that hurts.

Actually, I don't know, what I want.
I just hope, Hanse can cope with it. I hate the thought of him beeing sad...

We have a new Barmaid at the Swaggers - Her name is Shar-Tisha.
She don't seem so old, and I am rather concerned for her.

Yesterday, we had a episode which lead into arguements between Kiran and me - And ofcause Gerek had to get involved too. Darn Git - Why can't he mind his own business for once?

I were upstairs manding the bar when Ayseh come running up the stairs, claiming Kiran was beating Shar-Tisha. I went like, what the feck?
Follow her down and find Kiran twisting Shar's arm on her back.

After a bit of shouting at Kiran, this leaves me with the feeling of beeing really silly.

It turns out, that Shar-Tisha is Kiran's student and that he is learning her how to fight and how to survive.
I looked at Shar-Tisha and asked, if that was the truth. She seemed with with it.

I am just so annoyed that I didn't know anything about it.
If I had known, I could have calmed down the staff and let them know, that there was nothing to worry about.

Anyways, this whole misunderstanding lead into one of the larger arguments between me and Kiran.
And in the end, he took of his apron and left the kitchen and the Swaggers.

I walked upstairs rather annoyed and when they asked, about Kiran. I just told them how it was - That I didn't fire him, he just left his apron and then walked away and that it seemed like, that I was in need of a new Bar Manager.

Mmm, it turns out that Kiran regreted leaveing the Swaggers and I just pushed the apron back to him. Then he can take it or leave it.

We actually managed to speak without raiseing our voices...
I know, this aint right, but I can't help to wonder about, when the next arguement will come.

I still got Gerek's apron.
He gave it to me, when I refused to tell him, about the argument.

He claimed he could come back to the Swaggers now and then and that he hoped, I would tell him.
But why should I tell Gerek anything, that aint his concern?


*The writeing ends*

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