Kinu

Herenui's new diary.
21.08
All is so confused in my head. I need to write it. I must write it now :

Suddenly, i'm caught. Something uncredibly powerful returns me. I face it now.
Again.
It's night. I'm in the middle of the woods. I don't remember why, how i'm here.
But i recognize the creature.
This terrible face, her dusty clothe, these squeletic arms. And the smell. A smell of dust and old. Very old. A dry smell for a dry being.
Her two green eyes, too little for such a head, are piercing me till the brain, it's a torture.
She speaks to me now. I remember this green steam exhaled by her mouth when she's speaking.
"You. I remember you. you're alive. good. you're the only one. I thought i killed you like the other ones. But you survived...
you could come back to your body... so i've given you the right potion... even the signs of the poison have disappeard... excellent..."
Her hands are pressing my arms too strongly. I moan of pain.
She looks down.
"Your hand ? what has happened ? Is it the potion ?"
My hand ? what does she mean ? then i look down and understand... i've no left hand ! there is a dirty bandage at the end of my arm. then nothing...
what has happened ? good question... i have no idea !
"It's ... just an accident" i say...
"Oh. well. so it's not the potion"
I nod without understanding.
"You, it was two weeks ago, i remember you, on the beach, then in this hut, and you attacked me"
She laughs, but but her open mouth is like if the earth were opening until the hell...
She stops to hold me, and seeks something in her clothe.
I look around and prepare to run, but i realize that i can't move, i'm like paralyzed...
She's leafing through a small notebook. "Ah here" she says. "Yes two weeks ago".
She looks at me again : "i write every tries in this little book, everydays a different mix. Every night a new tester"
I don't know about what she's speaking. I just nod.
"Now i can go. finally"
I perceive for the first time a light of interest, of emotion in her eyes.
"So you're the last being i'll see from this silly world. What's your name ?"
My name ? oh but... i don't know... I... i don't remember !
I feel that i can't lie, and why should i ? "i don't know... i've forgotten who i am, i think i've forgotten everything until you catch me..."
Her eyes are wrapped in mine, she's exploring every corners of my mind, of my soul.
"So there's a side effect, finally, it's not the perfect mix".
She smiles, as much as such a face can produce a smile.
"It's perfect, in fact it's even better. I don't want to remember here".
Once again this penetrating look.
"Can you do something for me ?
I don't want that my body lies anywhere, and be discovered by stupid people. Can you help me and burn it once i've drunk the potion and left this world ?"
I somehow felt touched, even if i was not understanding everything. How could i refuse that to a being who was decided to die ? I noded silently.
"Follow me, then"
We walked for an half hour in the forest, then arrived at the coast. There, we prepared a thick bed of dead wood. We were working silently, quietly, like a meditation. I was not afraid anymore. I was just concentrated on our task. I was not judging, just helping. When the bed was ready, the creature opened a kind of leather bag, with a lot of little bottles in it.
"Ah, this one, she said. The night of the 07th to the 08th".
Then i helped her to lie on the wooden bed. She had no pillow. I sat next to her and put her enormous head on my lap. Without a word, she opened the little bottle and drunk it. I was expecting a violent reaction, but nothing happened... it's like she was naturally immunized against the poison...
She turned her eyes toward me, and chuckled. "I'm so stupid, she said. I've never thought that this poison could be harmless for me..."
After a last long look in my eyes, she closed her eyelids and did not move anymore.
I don't know how long i stayed like that, caressing her long grey hair, her head which maybe never met a friendly hand before. Then, when the sun started to rise up on the horizon, i put a tender kiss on her brow, woke up, and took the torch we had prepared. I put it under the bed, and left.

Now that i'm writing that, a few more images of my past are coming to my mind. I see myself on a bridge, there is a young girl next to me. I know her name. We're feeding the fish under us with some bread. I remember someone else, an elf lady, with a warm smile. We are friends. I see a man too, a human, he has a good heart. I don't know why i'm thinking about cakes now... Then comes the face of a young man, he looks intelligent and wise. I see in his eyes that he can listen more than the words. What's his name ? i can't remember. Oh, now there's another man, older. his look is very strong. I like him, even if i'm a bit afraid. he's a king. no. not a king, but something like that. Ah i don't remember.
I see now a cell. a very narrow cell. i'm sitting there. All around me is water. There's a big white harp. But i've no idea how to play such instrument...

Suddenly, i'm caught. Something uncredibly powerful returns me. I face it now.
"Lass ? lass ! You're sleeping on the writing desk of the Duke ! You're drunk or what ? Get off before i put you in a cell !"
I take quickly my notebook and leave this building...
Duke, that's it, not a King, a Duke. I shall try to remember that.


OOC : This story was not intended to finish like that. But as we are in the "hole" of August and it's getting hard to keep a good rythm of narration, i've decided to give it and other end. I thank you all. *smiles*