| The Commander's Journal
Saturday 5th August
It?s quiet. Too quiet. Arinar?s been transferred back to Gorimdor permanently, Mordred has gone to study under my father (not sure if he realises what he?s let himself in for, poor bastard), Samson?s on leave, and I?ve not seen Kai for several days.
Last night I spoke to Ulran about his own imminent departure. He, too, is being recalled to Gorimdor, and it appears to be permanent. Apparently the Priesthood don?t think we need a priest, since they are under the impression (quite wrongly) that we are not fighting any wars.
How the hell do they expect us to realise the Prophecy if Ulran is stuck in some backwater garrison in Treido? Maybe they don?t have faith in the Prophecy. Or maybe they fear its implications. If so, they are not true Razans, and do not deserve to be priests.
Of course, all this will leave us without a priest, but we will also be losing a strong warrior and, more importantly, a good friend. Ulran really is the only one who understands what it is I have to go through, because he and I are the same. There is a strong possibility that I might never see him again, and that thought is unbearable to me.
It as if all the good men are being bled away. Jess left for Gorimdor and never came home. Rolo died. Zool, Scorpz, Dimman, Vaxan?even Leanna?all gone.
The Tyevers will be next, and even if they are only gone for six months, as Foxy says, there is no guarantee they will have anything to return for.
I fear becoming like Kai; the last of my kind. I hope I die before that happens.
I wish Kai were here, not that he knows how to comfort, or give affection. I just need someone right now, who can understand. |