Rebecca

Been some days, since I last wrote a bit in my diary.

I feel a little better, than last time I wrote in my diary.
Guess it's when your sad - Your true friends appear and bless Marcus, his been there for me all the
time. Trying to tell me, that I aint a bad person - Considering what I did towards Hedlyn.

But for some reason, I still miss Hedlyn or maybe, it's just the thought of beeing alone, that scares
the living shite out of me!
After we broke up, I rarely see him anymore - and I assume he moved on. I
hope the girl that gets him, will be better to him, than I ever was.

I decided, that I wanted a day of so I could spend a little time with Sioned. Before she woke up,
I had placed the Christmas stockings at the kamin in the house and left a candy cane and a emeral-
bracelet in it for her. I even placed a little piece of coal in my own.

So my Angel woke up. And she was a biiiig smile - As soon as she spotted her stocking, she could
barely wait and I watched her when she digged into her stocking and found the candy cane and her
new bracelet. Bless her. It don't take much to satisfy that lil' lass.
I think, she loved the bracelet, because it was in her favorite colour of metal.

She looked at my stocking and asked if I had checked mine. I shoke my head and digged my hand
down and pulled out the coal. If Hedlyn had seen her face, he would have bursted out laughing!
Sioned opend her eyes wide open and outbursted "Oi! Becca - Yer been bad! Santa only gives coals
for the naugthy ones!" Oh, Sioned my little Angel - If you just knew how bad, I've been - Hurting
your Daddy's feelings so much, that he wanted his freedom.

I still struggle with myself - In a way, I wanna confess and tell her, why her Daddy aint so much
arround Vesper.. But again, I'm also scared, than I'll end up pushing her way, since she loves
her Daddy so much. I know, I would - If someone had treated my Dad, as I treated hers.

I have alot of small presents for her tugged away on a safe place, where she won't find them.
I wonder, what she will say for her next little present. I placed it earlier this eve.



Sioned came and asked me earlier, if she could go and play with a lass named Emma.
If someone ever can say no to Sio - I will be shocked, that little Angel so wraps me around her
piggy finger - And truth be told, I don't mind it. It puts a smile on my lips in these annoying and lonely
times.

So when Sioned was playing with Emma - I went out trying to gather something special for her.
It took me quiet a while, but now I have it and I plan it should be some of her presents for Christmas.
Gawd, I need a hobby - Who, beeing sane will slay that many Soles..and then collect 10.000 doubloons
and not to mention all the gems.



I wanna bet - 100 doubloons, that Tom will be impressed next time he see Bandit - My tame Racoon.
Some years ago - Tom were the one to find him, munching happily on some meat in the kitchen at the Swaggers.
It took me quiet a while to convince him, not to kill Bandit. Tom keept claiming, it was a true pest and should be killed.
I somehow managed, with alot of pouting and begging to change his mind and today - Bandit is a grown racoon.
I teached him well. His very fond of things - Hell, the lil' one even brings me nightshade, doubloons, gems, jewels
- Whatever he can get his hands on from Customers pockets, when he charms his way into theire hearts.



Bandit, My little pride, he do take some of the suspicions away from me and I really have tried to stop!
But unfortually, that goes as 'grand' as my love-life! I somehow managed to get myself a valorite dagger
- With poison charges on. Oooops! Next time, I won't be tempted! I will.... I will just control myself!

And tonight - Gawd, it can't get any worse now. It really can't!
The Swaggers got robbed and the bloodi feckhead got away with a little over 900 doubloons!
Oh feck, I was scared! Thought the Bastard were gonna stab me. The only thing that passed through my mind
where Sio, Heddy and the Veeties.



I couldn't do nothing but just handing him over the doubloons. It seems like, I will have to move the doubloons more
offen than I use to. As then with the lack of doubloons, mebbe they will leave the Swaggers alone.

Mmm, Someone once told me, that what I give out comes ten times back - Guess it's karma-payback time..
Blergh! Happy thoughts!

Right, gonna stop writeing now and then check on Sioned.
Then I'm gonna place a warrent and a bounty on him, as soon as Esca shows his bear-covered face at the Swaggers!

More later..

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