| I was wrong! My Xun’riia had no plans to betray me, she would never betray me I can see that now. She is gone for now but not as a means to betray me. No. Lloth is testing her, the Divine One has other plans for her and failure is not an option. I pray to Lloth for my Xun, for my soulmate. She will do all that Lloth requires of her and then she will come back to me and my life will be complete again.
So now I have thrown myself completely into my studies, my experiments and my search for the Skull. The search stalls again. I need someone who knows this world well. May be I will need to go outside my race. May be I need a human to help in this search. May be my experiments will help in this. I need a human that will not know or understand why and for what I search. For the moment my experiments take my mind off things but I must not lose sight of my final goal!
It is notoriously hard for a Drow female to become pregnant. There are three reasons for this. Firstly our natural lifespan of over 1000 human years lessons the need to breed constantly. The shorter the lifespan the greater the need to breed to ensure the continued existence of the species. Secondly, it is important that we females, especially those who like myself are of noble birth, select the right male to breed with. The blood of the nobility must never be tainted or diluted in anyway. Finally, the males themselves are extremely infertile. This has evolved through time as a self-preservation mechanism. The male knows he will die the moment the female conceives. That is the way of the Drow.
Rats breed by the million because their life is so short and humans are no different and yet the irony of it all is that they are inhibited by it. Why are the females ashamed of their bodies, embarrassed to be seen naked? They are ashamed and embarrassed if seen copulating or even talking about it. They think something that gives such great pleasure is wrong. They even think it wrong to touch themselves. So inhibited are they it is a wonder they can breed at all! And pain. Why can they not understand that pain can bring out even greater pleasure?
So I have acquired some slaves to experiment on. Find out why these inhibitions exist and take them away completely. Teach them to embrace pain and convert it into the most pleasurable of all sensations. The two younger ones I have hopes for and I will shape them the way I want them to be. The other, although not much older, is becoming a lost cause, she will be discarded and die. I will also introduce them to my pet demon. It shall breed with them and I shall see what spawns. It may well be that whatever spawns can only enhance my power and standing in the eyes of Lloth.
Ah Xun’riia, wish you were with me now. You so much enjoyed the giving and taking of pain. You would have enjoyed helping me in what I am doing. Come back soon and join me! |