- Diary of a Barmaid - - Page 3

Rebecca · 02-08-08, 11:04 PM

Saturday 2. August.

Today have been really quiet at the Swaggers.
Actually, now I think about it - Quiet ain't the right word to use.

Even though there haven't been alot of Customers around - We still have been busy with counting up ressources and wares, stocking up, planning meetings with diffrent Customers and ofcause thinking about future events. Personally, I think there is alot of good ideas between the suggestions and I am really looking forward to see them develope.

I started the day with finding Sa'hera in the basement. I asked her for makeing some new rollingpins as the old ones are worn out. While Sa'hera were working on new tools for the kitchen, I picked up the shopping list, Gerek scribbled the other day. I got everything that was on the list - So now everything is ready in the kitchen.

I also bought a new closet for the kitchen so there is more storage in the kitchen and when I were done getting the wares - at where I thought they should be, I decided to pull out the old drawer and push in the new closet.
Oh My Gawd!
I got such a shock when all the sudden the top shelf felt off the wall and there was fruit and meat all over the gawd darn kitchen!!

Beeing done crawling around on all four, picking up fruits and dried meat Gwen joined me in the kitchen..

She had been makeing a list of all the ressources she have been gathering and I must admit, that I'm impressed. I really am.

Also because she offered to count up and scribble down the exact numbers on the diffrent wares and ressources we have stored up at the Swaggers.

The future trades will be so much easier now. All it takes, when someone request a ressource or ask for a ware - is a look in the book.

Then we can see, what we have in and it should hopefully get out to our Customers faster than earlier aswell.

I personally think, Gwen deserve the golden apron on Sunday.

Kiran and Damien went to Stonekeep to disguss future wine trades. Hmm, looking forward to see the paperwork on how it went.
For some reason, I aint so nervous about that meeting - Knowing Kiran, I have the feeling that it went as we hope for.

More later.

Rebecca · 05-08-08, 11:47 PM

Tuesday 5. August.

With the Olympics and the truce beeing out of sight and obviously out of mind, Vesper started out Sunday prepairing for the battle near the boarders.

The Militia gathered outside the Swaggers and I were first shocked to see the low numbers of Vesperian Soldiers - And Veeties for that matter aswell.
I did cross my fingers - that Cove would have more luck gathering men to throw the Yewish off our lands.
Faith were against us and we lost the battle and I fear the Yewish are getting closer to us..

I am really trying not to let the loss get to me, but it's hard.
I can still remember the Yewish after the Olympic closeing Cermony. For some reason, the Sergeants words are still lingering in the back of my head and it really freaks me out.. Are they really that close to us?

Is the Swaggers really in danger of falling into the hands of the Loyalists?
Ugh! I don't even wanna know!

Before the battle, I decided I had waited long enough and now it was really time to speak with Elliot.
In a way, I guess Elliot knew it and he took the whole breakup incredible well - Mmm, maybe because I left out the part mentioning Devante and Damien.

Destiny? Maybe.
Bad luck? More likely!

Late Sunday eve our latest employee Ezekiel came running in - claiming he had found some dead people outside the Swaggers.
Me - Beeing somewhat puzzled over dead folks outside the Swaggers, I followed the others outside to have a look for myself.

I don't know why, but the first thought that popped into my mind were
"Drew is back..."

I pushed the thought away, because Drew haven't been in Vesper since that evening where Elliot and some Guards removed his hand and threw him through a portal..

However, it's the last time I questioning myself.
Monday, I were in the basement looking over the ingots and scribbling a note for Sa'hera so she knew, what she should go and mine for..

I heard some metal and first I thought it was Drake, as he wears metal..
But to my surprise - It was Drew.. I could hear it on his voice.

Ooooo his mad. He didn't attack me, but his words send chills down my spine.

I aint scared of getting a beating - However, I fear much more for Sioned. She is innocent and I don't know how angry Drew is with me..

Rebecca · 12-08-08, 05:04 PM

Tuesday 12. August

The 7th. August - The Duke from Trinsic had arranged a caravan with aid and supplies for Cove and with the alliance between Vesper and Cove - Both the Militia and us made donations for the cause.

Apart from a few cursed tree's, Trolls, Ogre's and some boglings in the swamp there wasn't any problems.
- Don't know why, but when we were on the road - I had the feeling that either some Brigands or the Yewish Mutts would jump out and attack us to get theire filthy mittens on our donations. Thankfully that didn't happen and the caravan reached Cove without problems..

Sunday - The Vesperians, Covians and the little handful of Veeties who actually had the guts to stand up and defend our boarders from the yewish mutts - were getting ready to fight.

For a reason, I don't understand - Kiran wasn't keen on fighting the yewish Mutts and truth be told - That worries me. I never heard Kiran use terms as: "I aint gonna risk limbs or life for bricks" or even surrender! I fear that the small meetings, small conversations and trades with the bastards are the main reason. Another reason could be the shade trade that went wrong, where he got himself a beating..

Admittedly, it took me a while to persuade Kiran. I saw no other option than bringing the whole conversation down to a level, where I reminded him of that the yewish Mutts did to his family and friends, asked how he even could consider surrender to them. I pressed on everything, that possible could make him change his mind and in the end Kiran just looked at me, grunted and went downstairs - and then reported outside with his crossbow in his hand.

It aint a secret, that I can't fight, but I went anyways wearing disguise.
My bag was filled to the limit with bandies and I were standing at the base ready to give aid for those in need.

Before the Vesperians and Covians arrived - The Captain from Yew gave me a visit...

Bleh.. I can't believe, I turned down 10.000 doubloons - But it was worth it because today I am able to face the mirror without feeling like shite.

The Vesperians, Covians and the Veeties fought the best they could - I have no doubt about it. We were so close - But again, faith were against us!

I am at this very moment seriously - considering visiting the Church, lowering my head and fold my hands and try praying.
Who knows - Mebbe that will work...?

Rebecca · 15-09-08, 02:11 PM

Monday 15. September.

The last few day have taken theire toll on me and I feel exhausted.

Yesterday, it was like reality hit me - Elliot is dead and I will never see him enter the Swaggers and order some water and bring it down to the table near Garret.
I will never again hear his voice saying "Should I set him on fire now?" when the madness reached unlimitted levels of craziness at the Swaggers.
What I will miss most - Is his smile, and his humor and the conversations we used to have...

I think Elliot would have been surprised to see all the people attending his funeral.. Even people, who we haven't seen for years attended.

Esca started out with reading Elliot's will. To my surprise - Both Sioned and myself were mentioned and I felt so guilty when Esca asked me to come up and pick up the check. I feel lousy for accepting the doubloons, because I cheated on Elliot more than once and never had the courage to come clean with him about it - Not even when I broke up with him.

After Elliot will were published - Esca allowed people to say something at his funeral.. Van had a few words to share with everyone about Elliot.

Van made me smile with his last line and I think alot of people would agree the line - Vesper won't be the same without Elliot around.

The news about Elliot's assasination also reached Anna-Maria - Who these days have settled down as a Fisher's wife.
Oh it's so typical Anna - Even though it might be depressing she is always able to come with some comment that makes us wonder or struggle not to giggle..

Even one of his enemies stood up and said something that wasn't insulting. I am still shocked that they didn't go
"Har! That's what you get for beeing a Vesperian! Har! In your face!"

Now, I know what Walker meant with "Let his final wish for justice be fulfilled"
The Guards were there for Kiran and I can't say I did anything - what so ever to stop them. I just don't care about him anymore..

Can Kiran sit in the Swaggers the very day before the funeral and say shite like this...

... His on my own.

Can he sit and ramble about how he wanna ban me from Vesper when he have the power to do so - His on his own.
Can he sit and threathen me, by strangling Sioned infront of me - Then he sure as feck - is on his own!!

My only regret is that my aim were so lousy that eve and I only managed to injury his shoulder and that Railen were so naive that she wanted helped him. Even though I tried to warn her about him..

For all I care, Kiran could have stayed on the floor in the Swaggers and bleed to death! Hell, I would even have cleaned up the mess myself!

If I am gonna leave Swaggers - Then those that wants me out, must carry me out.

All I can do now is hopeing that Kiran's muppets will forget about him and let him rot in the cell as he bloodi deserves!

Rebecca · 22-09-08, 02:41 PM

Sunday 22. September.

I experienced that beeing nosey sometimes can reveal things you rather would have been without.

Like Sunday eve, after the Ship took Elliot's coffin to his final resting place.
I were at the Swaggers together with Faust, Van and Grace as two Guardsmen from Yew entered the Swaggers. One of them I reconized as Gotrek Crossarms. Hmm, the Guard that had spend some hours in company with Angfan.

Pathetic really. They call us theire enemies - But we can't be that bad, considering, he could spend time - during the Minoc wars with one of Vesper's spellcasters.

I might have seen the other Guard before, but I can't remember his name and truth be told - It don't matter.

Apparently they had arrived to deliver a note to Esca.
I told them how it was - That Esca had retired for the evening and wouldn't be back before tomorrow.
With the peace treaty signed and everything, I didn't have the feeling of beeing in danger or anything, so I asked if they wanted a pint, as I almost felt sorry for them. Afterall walking from Yew to Vesper is a long walk.

To theire own loss they declined and shortly after they asked - if maybe they could get me to pass the note for Esca.
I resieved the note, folded it together without looking much at it and then I stuffed it into my apron pocket.

Hmm. First mistake - Resiving a note and not even ask a question about it.
Anyways, the Guardsmen left again and Grace, Van, Faust and myself continued our conversations and I should have known..Gawd, I should have known! Ofcause the conversation took a twist and then it was aimed at the note in my apron pocket..

With me beeing nosey of nature, it unfortunally didn't take much to convince me to have a peek, so I dug into the apron pocket and pulled the note out...

As sad as it is - It seems like we will be faceing another war. So many lifes will be wasted and because of what? Kiran? Sometimes, it's like they just look any excuse to build up some tensions or war. I don't understand it. Why Yew are so bloodi concerned about - How we run things in Vesper? If they have so large issues with Vesper, why don't they just stay away? One thing is for sure, I wouldn't miss them!

Van is Vesper's Baron again and I must admit it's a relief.
I were so worried that Jasin would win - with him and Kiran beeing so 'close' friends I didn't have doubt, that Kiran would have tried to make Jasin ban me from Vesper and obviously also the Swaggers.

I sit here with my diary and my thoughts travel back to the last conversation, I had with Kiran, before I shoot him...
After I did that - I have been feeling paranoid and watched. When Kiran have been around - It's like we just are watching eachother and waiting for the next move.. The air feels thick of tensions and that worries me.

I can't figure him out these days, but it's scary to see, how well that Man actually knows me. Even before I spoke with Elliot, Esca or Raiden.. It was like he knew, I was going to..

What depresses me the most, is that he can't see the reason for my actions - Whenever it's asking friends for help or if it's selling him out to the highest bidder. I don't wanna loose the Swaggers - Nor do I wanna see more Veeties getting the same fate as Fain did. Tortured and then beheaded.

As much as I want to put Kiran and the Brotherhood behind me. It keeps popping up over and over again! Last time, it was at the Council meeting.
Esca wasn't there nor was a Represent from Cove..
I believe, that after showing Van and Damien the note for Esca - Cove will be informed and that Van will mention the ideas, which he already mentioned to us..

Bah! Thinking about upcomming wars, council meetings, Dev, Raiden, Faust, suggestions about staying completly neutral, Jasin.. and where the hell Kiran is hideing these days, gives me a fecking headacke! I need some air!

More later...

Rebecca · 17-10-08, 01:15 PM

Friday 17th. October.

I have been meant to write in my diary for weeks - If it haven't already turned into months. So much have happend to me and I am greeting it with mixed feelings.

For several of years - If it aint a decade by now, I have been walking around in the believe that children of my own was something I would never get to experience.
I tried sleeping with a pillow under my behind, I have tried potions - One more foul than the other one, I heard rumors years ago about this elf-lass from Trinsic who is so special, that she could heal any injury - and ofcause I also gave her a visit back then. Still nothing happend..

Hedlyn came and brought this wonderful little troublemaker into my life and I swear, I was - Well I still am the happiest woman in Sosaria.

Then my friends began to bond and have children and I felt the sting of jealousy, everytime I saw the growing tummys. I cried so many tears and I guess to a point, the sick - Very sick Fain felt sorry for me and he brought me back another little Heartbreaker - Adrian.

When I look up from my head up from my writeings I can see both of them at the carpet playing with the toys.
My clever little lass. Seeing you there with your brother and he sits munching on a toy that you want... You pick up something else and he drops whatever it is he have in his hands to reach for it. I wonder how long she will be able to do that..

This is what I have and I am grateful for it. I really am.
I accepted the fact and then... I began feeling nausea and beeing so tired that getting out of the bed in the mornings was a complet nightmare.

After more than two months, I decided that maybe I should visit the Healers and then I got the shock of my life...

I am pregnant. A blessing or a curse? I don't know really.
Everyone keeps telling me to go and tell Devante - But it's easier said than done.
Like when I was speaking with Gwen from the Rose about Adrian - I heard Devante's statement "Me and babies are just a horrible cocktail". What in Sosaria makes them believe his gonna go jumping around and screaming in joy?
I have this image on how it's gonna turn out. When he hear about it, his gonna say "Pfft.. She's just after money.. That kid aint mine!". So why should I even bother?

I'm a lass with a reputation of beeing naugthy all the time and I can imagin that everyone have theire guess on who is the Father - I just try not letting it get to me.. I know for a fact, that it is Stirling. No matter what they say, when I was messing around with him - He was actually the only one.

Oh well enough about it!

Van have planned alot of diffrent Festivals in Vesper. We kicked off with Vesper's harvest festival. Alot of work with two diffrent tournaments, poem competition, Market and ofcause a round of Twisted. It wasn't as visited as one could have hoped for and we didn't pull home a large amount of doubloons. But I am satisfied with what we got..

It won't help to whine about it. I still got some trades and some deliveries to make.

The rumours about this Nest reached me and I went and paid it a visit.
It's very diffrent from the Swaggers - So many bright colours and on the first floor, it got a large mudbath. But I don't think, it's a competition to our own concept. I don't feel threathed by it in any way.
I did met the owner Elizabeth and as we talked, she gave me the tour around the Nest. Hmm that place surely have some possibilities regarding trades. It can come in handy for my trades with Stirling and Kendall, while there is these tensions between Vesper and Trinsic.

Hmm, I wonder if what the outcome of that will be...
More later though - The bloodi shelfs don't stock up by themself...

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